My Coach, Geoff, told me the above words the other day when I was feeling a bit low and sorry for myself. My phone bill was unpaid so I could only get incoming calls and my car was off the road as it was untaxed, other bills were piling up ……… so I was very much in a deep valley with the only view being more of what I had and that’s when things changed. He reminded me that I was growing as a person and that everything that was is a result of what had gone before. Now I knew that from having watched The Secret but I didn’t know how to get out of the depression and negativity! It just wasn’t me.
My friend Caroline is a Heart Centred Therapist – she told me that I was going to have a major breakthrough and although I didn’t quite understand her at the time, looking back she was so right!
She told me I still wasn’t being true to myself and doing things that were really from my heart. Geoff had told me the same things. At first I resisted their words – of course I was doing things from my heart – I loved what I was doing……………. didn’t I?
But, she said ‘What are you doing? How many things are you doing?’
I said, ‘I am doing things I love’.
‘So, why are you so miserable?’ she said
I don’t know, maybe I am just tired. I’ve had some very late nights recently so perhaps I’m just a bit run down.’ I replied
Susan, you’re my friend and I am telling you as a friend that you just aren’t being true to yourself. You are not showing anyone who you really are or doing things from your heart!’ she said lovingly to me. Ouch, that hurt.
So after talking together until the early hours her words finally sunk in. The result was such a big mental shift that I started working on Phoenix CAN’s website and it’s beginning to take shape.
In My Story I quote Marianne Williamson’s words in her book “A Return to Love”:
‘You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel
insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
‘I had argued that I preferred to promote other people rather than myself but she told me that once people knew the real me and what I could do, then my life would really change. So, now I am sharing with you something about the real me.
After reading the book, The Passion Test, a few weeks I wrote on my index card:
LIFE IS IDEAL BECAUSE:
1. I am living in a beautiful house in a paradise
2. I travel, make inspiring films and write inspiring books, meeting inspiring people
3. I have wonderful relationships with my friends, family and husband (I’m still single, by the way)
4. I am honoured and loved for the good I do and respected for the love I show myself and others
5. I am fit and healthy and look at least 20 years younger
Yet, I was doing nothing to make the above desires a reality. By not allowing my own light to shine, I was not being very inspiring to anyone else. My close friends want me to succeed – they want me to inspire them so I really had to look at what was holding me back and yes, it was that dear old word “Fear”.
Talk about synchronicity! Only this week I read some of Susan Jeffers’ book “Feel the Fear and do it anyway” and her newsletter about fear. I was afraid of:
· Being exposed
· Being successful
· Being a failure
· Being happy
· Being in demand for my services
· Being better of financially
I’m sure I could add to the above list. I now have much more energy and enthusiasm, despite another late night and the money is now coming in so I can pay my bills.So, never forget – Coaches, Inspirational & Motivational Speakers, Teachers and others you look up to are only human. The difference between those who are good and those who are brilliant is that they speak from the heart as my friend Caroline does and as I am beginning to – will you?
